Finally, the day i have been waiting for. Going HK tomorrow. Dont really know what's going on now

I like meeting new people and interacting with new people. But i also love my old friends, i want to have a balance of both but it seems like i can never do that, because im always contradicting myself, i always read too much into something, and persuade myself all over again. I know what i want but i wont ever work hard enough. The person i want to help most badly is myself. Forget it. I have 2 papers left, having a bad headache now.So mad tired ):

Decided to go cq to study tomorrow, having WAY too many weird dreams, dreaming of weird people, i should stop and control em. 3 more papers, 2 more days to my drama and almost 1 more week to end of this shit and bammmm out of s'pore. :) We can do this. GO

Friday was the most productive day, today was not good but good in other ways, spent productive time with mum and bro, even though it was just a while, it felt good. What am i talking about now? Why is so hard to concentrate man. Lets work harder because i actually like the feeling of work EXTREMELY HARD. and by that i mean working all day. which sounds kinda sick because it is. Let me end with 10 facts of myself. Dont even think anyone will want to read something meaningless like that but heh, enjoy .

1)I cant eat peanut butter.
2)I like food that are sweet/ spicy.
3)The place i want to go badly but i wont ever have the guts to is Tibet.
4)I LOVE travelling
5) I tend to lie a lot and i can lie really well
6)I used to love talking to people all the time, or almost all the time, but no longer now, and idk why
7)I love ToyStory
8)I consider myself as a free thinker
9)I am hooked on this kDrama - to the beautiful you.
10)I cant wait for this year to end.

I always feel that Wednesday is the catalyst of the week. That's a random thought. I want to earn money and work at H&M, i want to get spikes to do tons of DIY stuffs. i want to lie on my bed for the entire day and think about nothing, just stare at the ceiling. I want to decorate my own room,  i want to set up my own wardrobe when im getting a new one. I want to go on a 1 month holiday.

犯的起错的时候，就犯一些错，将来人生才会觉得有东西可以回忆

连我也不相信 自己
我怎么学不会忘记
我还是爱着你 为什么我不甘心
如果没有拥有就没有失去
那为何我还会伤心 

Today sucked. Hate unproductive days,but i found out something awesome, i want to go YOGA's concert! Thinking if i should get my tickets before i go hongkong or not. Tried studying at home but i failed terribly. The same set of notes, at cq i can finish in 30/45 mins? But now, 4 hours have passed and im still not done.

I love the feeling of being able to concentrate on something, i used to be able to do that. But today i mean yesterday, i finally did. Feels damn good, lets try it today again. The feeling when you only have your eyes for something, trivial stuffs no longer matter and bother you.


Quick updates. Went to work at Snow Patrol's concert yesterday, they were amazing, it was a good experience. Woke up lateeeeee today and went to my favourite place on earth to study, it was productive. Gonna continue studying because i have no life. Bye

Was looking through Porntep's 18th birthday photos.That day was perfect.
Thinking about the last Olympics which was 2008? That year was perfect.

now i finally know how it feels when people worry for you, the feeling sucks, not really because there isnt anything you can do, but you are not good enough with your words to convince the person. That seriously sucks. Takes time i guess. I wonder if anyone genuinely worry for me, not that i want to feel proud that someone actually cares for me, but i will want to apologize for making him/her feel so helpless or probably frustrated. Too many things to handle at one go. But we are strong enough, peace out people.



                                            Happy birthday my best mummy :-) Love you more than anything.

happy happy now, that's what it really matters right ? :) Now i have something to work towards to, im lucky :)

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