This few days have been crazy, many things happened and i still can't believe that i am back to the starting point. I hate being like this, feeling being controlled. I hate it when this is on repeat , keep failing makes it harder for me each time. I am disgusted and disappointed with myself. I keep asking myself how long will this take, this is getting out of hand. Maybe there was nothing from the start, i held on to something that didn't even exist in the first place. I want to know the answer badly, but it is really not worth, i know. I hate being affected and i start to affect the mood of people i know because i have no rights to do that. I don't understand why do i take such a long time to move on, it is ridiculous, it feels like a prank.

There is always someone you can rely and understand you, i am so glad i have one. Thank you

I realized i am knowing more and more things now, which is scary and fun. I forgotten many important memories because i was focusing on the wrong ones, but now im back.I want to know everything


                                                                Look how cute my bag is.
                                                 Found this in wardrobe, i used to carry this when i was young.
                                                          Glad that i had a good childhood :)

Move on .move on.  move on



                                                       Lets all be happy like him.
                                                         It is never too late



I need to eat loads of sinful food, look at tons of kai rong's picture, spam watch taeyeon's videos,i want to sing straight 5 hours of K, i wish i can sleep for a long long time. Listening to the radio, i should have go run instead of sleeping just now.
I can't believe that im saying this, but what shit have i done? why am i always treated like shit everytime. Actually it doesn't surprise me anymore, just that this time its u guys .

Looking back at how you guys started, dated, ended. You guys made me believe and fall back into negativity in the end. This further convinced me what i believed from the start. Even though it has nothing to do with me, but why do i feel like it breaks my heart more badly then the two of you? Now i am back to the determined mindset of mine which is unhealthy and extreme but that is the only shield i have left for myself. I still have the pictures we took for you guys at prom,each time i see it, it only makes me feel more sick , tired, disgusted and disappointed. It is really funny when you feel so much for something that doesn't concern you. Good night .



This is one of the nights i have to blog.
" If your intention is to fail at the start, you will never succeed"
We are all growing, learning.






I always feel that18th birthday is one of the most important birthday in a person's life . Enjoy yours Charmaine <3








Because i was dumb, i had bad taste.Never again.

Goodnight. Stay happy, brave and humble

 Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract* Intelligent and clever* Changing personality* Temperamental* Quiet, shy and humble* Honest and loyal* Determined to reach goals* Loves freedom* Rebellious when restricted* Loves aggressiveness* Too sensitive and easily hurt* Showing anger easily* Dislike unnecessary things* Loves making friends but rarely shows it* Daring and stubborn* Ambitious* Realizng dreams and hopes* Sharp* Loves entertainment and leisure* Romantic on the inside not outside* Superstitious and ludicrous* Spendthrift* Learns to show emotions

Damn it, today was a really awesome day with my IP peeps , it was freaking amazing.
Why do people always take me for granted? You seriously think that i am someone who can ALWAYS tolerate you? Seriously, i don't understand this is not how it should be man. I am upset because you are someone i care, i tried to calm myself, finding excuses for you. Argh, please, alright, chill and move on. Nothing should spoil today, nothing. Thanks Corin, i needed that. :)

Finally over, feels like it is an exam then MST. Extremely tired, but today is awesome. Laughed so much with IP peeps, love them! Even though this holiday will be busy too, but i am really thankful for everything. I learn to be thankful and cherish what i have around me, this year. Sound quite pathetic, but yeah. So thankful for my family, i have the best family in the world. Thankful for all my friends, never thought that anyone would actually care for me and text me in the middle of the night to ask me to sleep, haha this one is for you Justin. I have the most amazing friends in my life too.Thank god for everything i have and i don't know who might be reading this, it might sound cliche our whatsoever, thank you too, by reading everything that i typed actually means you are care for me (at least a little? ) :) So blessed <3 Shall end with a pic of my son again, pls grow well and eat well  :)

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