i need someone to praise me now, im serious, i need one badly now

I should be studying now.
I will do anything to make Yoga lin sing in front of me.
I will do everything
I should be

" accident can be prevented", you can prevent yourself being hurt , as long as you make up your mind.

Told char about obey tee that i want, she says its nice! Finally someone gets me! I want to get out of here asap.
Oh im going to keep my hair long because i want to braid it or curl them. Bye

Listening to songs, non stop watching videos. Awesome night, finally get to rest. Jay chou is crazily talented, to think that i used to hate him.

I learn something today. I was told that im a naive person who takes everything the way it is. Yes, it is proven. Sometimes i even question  myself what are my brains for, because im sooooooo dumb.

This is for you. I will write now because i am awake and i am sure not writing on impulse. You need to get back on your feet. Look what have you turned yourself into. Unhappy, miserable, even annoying. Not only you make yourself upset, the people around you have not stopped worrying for you. Yes, this is not fair, you should not be the one suffering alone. Ask yourself, are you being fair to yourself? What have you being doing all this while? You used to be cheerful, positive and independent. You look nothing like yourself now. All words and no actions is useless. I can say that because i used to be like that for years, but thank god i made the change. It is difficult, because good things will not come to you naturally, you need to exchange it for your hard-work. Did you really tried ? Did you tried hard enough? Don't get influence, you dont need to lock your heart, you just need to lock your mind. Once you are determined, nothing can stop you, NOTHING. The worse part is holding on something that is not worth it. Discard all your feelings, dont hesitate because the pain and tears wont lie. Find yourself back. Because you are no longer you, you have become a puppet that is manipulated by him. You don't need this in your life, leave it all behind.This time, fight for yourself, you need to be free from this unwanted memories.

I am so so so tired. Not productive today, but laughed a lot. I decided i want a cambridge satchel. Kidding.




Sick today, having my period now, its like everything crashing , horrible feeling. This week is horrible, funny enough, when u haven been through the week and u already know it suck. Thought of this person who i wanted to blog like long long time ago, i think i mentioned his name before. Really glad to have him in my life, a really great person. I regret not talking to him like since sec1, i should have. He is one of the few that REALLY understands me. I would say it is not easy i guess, only one or two can really understand me. It feels like it is easy to know me but its is nothing like that. He is the one person who can make me laugh real hard and teach me at the same time. I lock the conversations i have with him in my phone, yes, he is that amazing. Proud of my awesome friend as always, he is the best. :) I feel better now. yay bye

This year don't suck, in fact i have learned and gained so much, but i don't know why i cant wait for it to be over.

I have too many thoughts in my mind now. Too much to even name them out even though i have the urge to. Never mind, but i don't know why i am going to write this now, totally not one of the things that i intend to blog but whatever. It is about my mum. Sounds really uninteresting, but yes. I love her more than anything else in the world. She is the best. She is too amazing that sometimes, i feel like i fail terribly as a daughter. She is intelligent,humorous,hardworking,fun to be with,lovely,kind,organised,generous to everyone except herself, selfless,kind,practical,always full of good ideas. Not even exaggerating a little.She is a good friend, daughter, parent, woman. I think her only flaw is she loves to assume, all the time. But i think everyone do that. But i still love her. I dont tell her that because im really bad in expressing my true feelings to people who are too important to me. My dad doesn't have the slightest idea how lucky he is.He probably know, i don't know. But i always regard myself as a lucky person, mainly because of my mum.I want to be like her, as difficult as it sounds, i really want to. I will never be able to repay her, if i could, it would take many lifetimes. I just want her to stay with me forever, i just need her. Without her, i feel like nothing, i feel like i don't know what im doing.Thanks for reading all this. Goodnight. Happy birthday grace <3


Tired but happy day. Food coma for the past few days. Gonna rest now. Have an awesome weekend ahead

Today marks the 4th year, What a happening day. Good day. Seriously food coma. Work hard.





Wanted to say i laughed so much and today wasnt bad, but im going to take it back.
IP kills people. Fucking stressed.

Fucked up day, today can't get any worse. Hope next week will be better.

It wasnt that bad.
Most productive day of the week.
Did a good amount of work.
Tired, and extremely hungry now, hate this feeling. Bye

I let people down, all the time.
Kill all negative thoughts,


                                                             I have decided to be happy.
                                                  Nothing and no one is going to stop me. :)

I dont want to do this anymore.

So tired, shit happened, i don't want to face the world, i don't want to move.


                                                                       Hello.
                                                               Watching running man.
                                                          I want to do lots of DIY stuffs.
                                                          Tomorrow is monday, AGAIN

Event was good, post event was even better. Love today. Everythings's ok.

Slack week. Going for Amazing race tomorrow. I reckon next week would be damn busy.



我总会把你戒掉

Horrible feeling. Why do i make myself inferior.

I feel like shit today, the past few weeks. I feel like shit shit shit. Worthless and useless, don't deserve anything good in my life, feel like nothing. NOTHING. I want to kill myself.

Totally is relatively free and good, walked in the rain, went home and sleep all the way for 3 hours, im doomed, no idea how to sleep later. But still, relatively good day :) I love all my people around me, can't afford to lose them. Site visit + clique meeting tomorrow! 我是幸福的:)

Enjoying temporary free time now, today is relatively free. Feeling angsty and unstable today. Want to kill my accounts teacher i absolutely don't understand what she is talking about. Feeling rotten. Today sucks.


Feel much better, but it always comes and go. Every single time. Slept way too much, which is good, i am just afraid i can't wake up early tomorrow for school. I hope next week is better but i doubt so, it is so packed with stuff.Sometimes I just want to be someone else. Have a good week ahead.
"你是我最無法收斂的全心付出
雖然一廂情願的 想念更讓人無助
你是我最意想不到的一次投入
就算總會失去的 失去之前我要更用力抱住 "

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